I know that I've been grieving the loss of my time- the time I used to spend reading or writing or getting things done. I know also that I should be present in the moment- that I should focus on the here and now, not on what I need to get to next. I try, but it's not easy to embrace the moment when I keep thinking I really need to do the laundry before I run out of clothes to wear or I really want to write but I don't know how long I have before the baby wakes again.
While sneaking in a few pages of reading One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are by Ann Voskamp, I came across this:
...in the beep and blink of the twenty-first century, with its "live in the moment" buzz phrase that none of the whirl-weary seem to know how to do, who actually knows how to take time and live with soul and body and God all in sync? (page 67)Ann poignantly encapsules how I feel in this busy world, especially now where my time is no longer my own. In fact, this is what I explore in my blog. This is what Life After Web is all about.
Ann goes on to say something that drove right to my core: "I just want time to do my one life well." (page 68)
Yes! Time to do my one life well. To give up my preconceptions about what I should be doing, what I'm not doing. To know that I am on the right path. My life is different now then it was just 5 weeks ago and that's okay. I am doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing right now. If I can remember that, there is enough time for me to do this one life well.