Thursday, March 17, 2011

Time to Live

I've been thinking about time a lot lately, mostly in the "where does it go" sense. My days are packed with caring for my baby and seemingly void of time for myself and others. But I wonder if that is my reality or merely a choice. I don't know the answer.

I know that I've been grieving the loss of my time- the time I used to spend reading or writing or getting things done. I know also that I should be present in the moment- that I should focus on the here and now, not on what I need to get to next. I try, but it's not easy to embrace the moment when I keep thinking I really need to do the laundry before I run out of clothes to wear or I really want to write but I don't know how long I have before the baby wakes again.

While sneaking in a few pages of reading One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are by Ann Voskamp, I came across this:
...in the beep and blink of the twenty-first century, with its "live in the moment" buzz phrase that none of the whirl-weary seem to know how to do, who actually knows how to take time and live with soul and body and God all in sync? (page 67)
Ann poignantly encapsules how I feel in this busy world, especially now where my time is no longer my own. In fact, this is what I explore in my blog. This is what Life After Web is all about.

Ann goes on to say something that drove right to my core: "I just want time to do my one life well." (page 68)

Yes! Time to do my one life well. To give up my preconceptions about what I should be doing, what I'm not doing. To know that I am on the right path. My life is different now then it was just 5 weeks ago and that's okay. I am doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing right now. If I can remember that, there is enough time for me to do this one life well.

1 comment:

  1. That's the right mindset!...though it is truly a hard one to live daily.

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