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Found: A Love Note to Myself

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So I'm rereading Carry On, Warrior: The Power of Embracing Your Messy, Beautiful Life. I don't often read a book more than once, and occasionally when I do I find I'm not as into it the second time around. Sometimes things speak to you in the moment and when that moment passes, the words aren't as meaningful.

This is one of those books I immersed myself in when it was first published. I'm a fan of Glennon Doyle Melton's blog momastery.com, and I jumped right on board when she announced her book. I sat with highlighter and pen in hand each night reading her stories.

My friend has been reading Carry On, Warrior in recent weeks and mentioning various parts that are funny or wise. Our conversations made me want to revisit it, so last night I curled up with Glennon's book once again.

Right from page one her honesty astounds me. She puts all her baggage right out up front. She shares her demons and never makes excuses for them. I wish to live (and write) as bravely as Glennon. In reading her story I wonder what mine is. My struggles are not the same.

That's what I'm thinking when I stumble across a note I scribbled on the corner of a page: "show up just as you are."

It's a love note to myself. A reminder of utmost importance. Forget perfection. Let go of pretenses. Don't wait until you're ready (because you may never be). Simply show up now. Just as you are.

I can't wait to see what other notes I might stumble across as I reread.

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  2. […] out to meet me where I was. As I read it, I highlighted passages, I laughed, I cried, and I wrote notes to myself that I would find a few years later as I sat down to re-read […]

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