Enhancing My Calm
How things look on the outside of us depends on how things are on the inside of us. ~Park Cousins
I'm thinking a lot about calmness today. I started this week off with the most amazing sense of inner calm. The business of January culminating in frantic basement work in preparation for a Superbowl party left me feeling harried. Then Monday morning came and I awoke to only the usual obligations: taking care of my family, my home, and myself.
It was soothing to know there was nothing extra to be done. I could breathe.
In the middle of the week, things started getting busy again until last night I was feeling frantic. Again. I hate that feeling.
So today, I'm placing a lot of focus on maintaining my inner calm. Despite the fact that my little boy turns 2 today. Despite the approaching snow storm. Despite my teenager's as of yet unnamed "spectacular funtastic" plans.
This morning I woke up a bit earlier than normal and I got in the shower to wake myself up. When my husband left for work, I sat in the quiet studio and played the first meditation video in Susan Piver's Open Heart Project, which has been sitting in my email inbox for two weeks now (collecting with other more recent sessions).
I haven't had a lot of experience with meditation, but it seemed a good place to start to enhance my calm. (Remember in the movie Demolition Man how they would tell an angry person to "enhance your calm." Right, well I'm a dork and I remember and I'm telling myself.)
As it happened, just after Susan finished her opening explanation and the bell chimed to start the actual meditation practice, my phone rang. Since I was watching the video on my phone, it was quite the intrusion.
Rather than be rattled by the interruption, however, I had a lovely conversation with my husband. When it was done, I started up the video again and did the 10 minute meditation. And you know what? I am feeling calm right now.
I hope to hold on to this feeling throughout the day, returning to it when I stray.
I may not have even thought to do the meditation if it weren't for Cora Ramos posing a question about meditation earlier this week, so thank you, Cora! (She wrote about it yesterday on her blog in a post called Wild and Crazy Thoughts.)
How do you maintain (or return to) a sense of calm when things get crazy?